God Works Miracle

The deception of OMNI Group still lingers here, in my thoughts. I'm still going to the interview tomorrow, it'll be good for experience, but that excitement died. I'm still trying to recover. Maybe it was something that my boss/friend said that made me dislike this company. I feel tricked. Their job posting was so ambiguous, they posted like nothing as their employer profile, not to mention that they have the same name as 100000000 other companies. I guess in a way, it was my stupidity, mixing the OMNI group with the OMNI group that got me really disappointed in myself. THe OMNI group I was loking at was a really impressive company, but the other OMNI group that I actually applied for was something different. Till now, I have no idea what they are and what they do. And the way they posted was very dishonest.

I feel like crying after that meeting with my boss/friend who tried to figure out what this company is about for me with the limited information we have. I know this is an excuse, but I'm just gonna say it to get it out, and then I can cry and hate myself later.

She gave me some instructions that would have I guess save me today, but I didn't exactly follow her instructions. I was upset with the deception. I felt so silly. So I called up Ranny and I ranted. About 2 hours later when I was like pass 1am, he had to go sleep and me too actually, I have a class 8:30am today. Since it was so late, I didn't do what I was suppose to do, and somehow, I have no regret. I still felt relief that Ive called Ranny. Im still happy to have heard his voice~ somehow, when I talk to him, all the problems in the world just goes away. Ironically, we were talking about the end of the world with all these earthquake, tsunami, war.

I want to thank GOd for giving me such a good friend. I know that somehow, if I put my trust in God, it will all work out well. And just like that, I got another interview on Wed for a HR position part time at this pretty well known financial company. Although I really really mess up the phone interview, taken by surprise while I was with my boss/friend shopping for dress wear for my tomorrow's interview, they still want me to come in for another interview.

God has delivered me again~ working wonders

McQueen's Idea of Canada

Since it bothers me so much, it made it on my blog. Where do I start? First of all, McQueen is just a character in this novel that we had to do in class. Through McQueen, the author attempt to capture realism which, I must say, he did a pretty amazing job, the author brought out consciously what was happening in Canada. So to sum everything that happened in Canada, I'll put it all in one word, and that is NOTHING!! Nothing happened! That's what pissed McQueen I suppose, who was an English businessman from Montreal driving for innovation and progress. Yes it left this beautiful country peaceful, which is the first aim of our constitution, but at the same time, it's dull and boring. Now here comes the interesting part: he claims that Canada unlike the States never initiate anything,never invented anything and never started anything like the depression or the world wars.

The thing is, I rather Canada be dull and boring then start a war or the depression. When I brought this up in class, the prof agreed with me, but she suggested that we would still be following whatever happens. Which, in most part, true. It's too bad that Canada can't think independently, I think it's 'cause we are not completely financially independent like the Jews.

But what strike me the most is that with the HST and the Bill C389, it clearly shows that Canada can in fact be efficient. Although they are all through personal agendas, I rather Canada be politically correct than have STUPID GAY BILLS LIKE HST AND C389!! Especially this new one private 389 bill!!! This basically say that if one claims to be a transsexual than he or she can go to the opposite sex's WASHROOM! This law claims to protect minority which is BULL CRAP!! What can't they use the handicap or have another washroom just for them!? Who is gonna protect the little boys and girls who knew nothing of this? Who is gonna protect women against men who may be mentally and emotionally unstable due to their sexual confusion? Who is going to protect OUR PRIVACY!? I hate it when Canada tries to be a leader in social change! THere are already so many incident where men hides in the washroom and rape their victims, and with this law in place, can those who sign this bill be held accountable for future robbery/ rape/ murder incidents in the washroom? I THINK NOT! So why da hell would you pass some gay law like that?! By the time these things are enforce, it's this generation who's going to be punish for their mistake.

I am starting to hate the liberal more and more.

CUrrent Music: Silly LOve Songs - Glee

so tired

I'm so sleepy but i wanna keep working. I feel so sad nowadays, I think it's the group works. THere are too many of them, and each of these group work have their own issues. Sigh, I just wanna be left alone and work on them independently. Seriously, it'll be more work but it'll save the pointless meeting time. THere's an 8am meeting tomorrow on skype via google doc. Thank God for technology. Still, I don't know how well this is gonna go. I'm so sleepy n listening to sad music. So confuse with my rela with Ranny lol I don't know what we are and it shouldn't matter, not at this point. We're friends, no more, no less. That's that.

Somtimes...

Sometimes I feel like those rich kids, who's parents just gives them a load of cash to make up for the neglect and the lack of care. Except for the fact that we;re not rich and they never gave me a load of cash. But sometimes, they do buy me presents to make up I guess. Other times, they'll stood us out on a dinner while they're busy shopping, but told us to order anyways at some fancy restaurant and paid their with visa. I know they love us in their own way, whatever that means, but I don't know. I'm sure they have lots of things to say about me, like just yesterday, lol my father called me a disappointment. It didn't hurt, not one bit, it was a way to express his feelings at that time and I can understand where he's coming from. But then again, I can say the same for them. I don't know why, but the situation seem so sad.

You know, my lil bro, he's in Gr.4 I think? There was this parent teacher interview recently and his teacher complained that he is always tired and he's always hungry. Can you people like pack snacks for him? And of course, my mother was upset when she heard this, like "omg~ I didn't neglect my child, I'm a good parent really I am! I let him do whatever he wants as long as it doesn't bother me, I'm good" Now of course she didn't say this to the teacher's face. When my sister heard it, she got angry with my lil bro, because he should know and learn how to look after himself like how we all did. Pack his own lunch and find snacks and eat his snacks. And finally, I got angry at him because you don't tell your teacher that our parents don't feed you! You post it like a blog like what I'm doing right now (jking), but have you no dignity? You'll think the teacher will start bringing food for you if you tell them that? NO SILLY! They'll just think you have bad upbringings, then label you and tell the other teachers about it. All in all, it'll ruin your name in that school, elementary teachers are really bias.

I think the reason why I am so upset is because they don't seems to care about competition that I am currently in. I don't think they're really interested about it. Im going to NATIONAL in Montreal!! Doesn't that mean anything to you? Do you know how big a deal it is for me? They don't want to know what I'm learning and don't want us to interfere with their work. So don't BS you want to know about me!

There's a very wise saying from Jim Rohn. He said (not in exact words) you can tell your child that 'John! You've mess up!' But DON'T LEAVE THEM MESS UP!

Starving

I wonder if it ever occur to my parents that there's no food in the house. But we'll just go out and eat~ Not a problem~ It's just that I wish we have food in the house. I don't mind spending my OSAP money on breakfast and lunch outside, but it would save me a lot of money if there's food at home. It's not like I'm eating with my friends, I'm usually just dinning out alone.

So I had my exam from 2-4pm today. I got up at 9am and ate chocolate and yogart for breakfast. But those things don't last very long, so I went to timmies on my way to school for breakfast. After I finished my exam, I bus and so on and so fort, I was just starving. My bus stopped by the Loblaws and I thought I needed to buy bread and soup and so on for myself, not just for now but for the week. So I went to Loblaws, only to discover that the dollar sale was over, and things have gotten so much more expensive. I debated and decided not to buy because, silly me, would think my parents would go shopping to day (it's Sunday) and load the house with food. I also thought they might order take out for me cuz I had exams while they were all eating out for lunch (n breakfast too), but apparently, it was all wishful thinking. I came home and my parents were out still doing some church stuff Im guessing (but not shopping for sure). I asked my sister if they saved any food for me and she like laughed and said "no! Why would we do such a thing?" Like I don't know? Maybe the house got no food!? n Rebekah got exams and she had nothing to eat for the entire day??"

I have to say, I was pretty upset and somewhat angry when she said no. I should have knew it was wishful thinking and I regret not buying food on my way home. But see, I got another exam 8:30am tomorrow and instead of waiting in line, I really needs to study. Funny thing is, I'm so hungry and upset, I don't feel like studying. But after I ate more New Year chocolate I feel better. Although I was warn to not eat chocolate anymore (cuz I nearly singlehandedly lol, finish the whole box, but hey! do u honestly think I'm happy to have chocolate every single day for breakfast and lunch?), I still had a few more.

u_u I even debated if I should walk all the way back out in the cold just to get some food. What would they care?

I'm still really hungry >_> I think we're going out for dinner, but not anytime soon. >_> THese people really don't care about my exams or my education.... I would know... Whatever, it's just another one of these MANY incidents. I should have gotten use to it by now. Anyways, really needs to study.


Current Music: Need you now - Glee

GAME ON!!

So the meeting times are set. My team is coming back alive. The other cocach finally responded, this is what she said "I'll come at 8am but only because I have extremely high hopes on you guys." Now we are back on track and we are out to get them!!! FINALLY! I'll pray that we'll give it everything we got and that all our hard work will be paid off when we win first place at National. Let the intensity of the training and pressure come before me. Concordia, McMaster, Lauier and any other universities across the nation will step aside, we'll show them the meaning of superstars1

So no more bejewel~ :P If I ever feel like playing it again, I will go increase my vocab. I will also begin conditioning myself with morning excerise and also read the news everyday single day. Analysis and storytell it to my siblings~

VICTORY IS OURS!!!

Gu Zheng

I've been writing/ translating a lot of scores lately~ from Betrayal by Gary Gao or Paparazzi by Lady Gaga~ :P When I perfect them, I think I might make a videdo and post it on youtube~ it prolly won't be uploaded till summer tho. Till then, I better start better managaing my time.

*sigh* Just thinking about work is depressing.