A few more days left~

wow havent blog for a very long time.... Been really really busy, still got A LOT to do.

sooo....

1) Fix next year's schedule
- call the psy department
- find another humanity course

2) Finish packing my room

3) Pack for China

4) Help my boss with files and letters (tomorrow 8 am)

5) Ranny's coming over to pick up my spare gu zheng

6) Renewing this account thing

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I'm leaving on Thurs. morning so not much time left >_____<
I also got some new songs to listen to ^-^ well~ it's not new but I finally got a hold of them yay~

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Today's meeeting didn't go well. u_u I'm just kinda fustrated @ everything. Micah sure cheer me up tho, him and his gay jokes lolol. *sigh* School is starting very soon again. I had never thought of the importance of marks until recently. I think my boss really drill it into my head. u_u I'm so tired...... I'll post the pics up later x_x, when Alex post those pics I'll post.

Got a doctor appointment tomorrow so prolly wont be online till later.

Lady Gaga So Happy I Could Die

I don't know why, but it makes me happy in a sad way. I have no idea what the song is talking about but it kinda cheers me up a little from this chaos right now. lol

Really wanna go shopping again. Didn't get enough lol I just wanna get away for awhile and just think thing through. Too much is going on~ Just got my new work assignment and meeting, the possibility of moving just got knock down, plans to clean the house, short term mission trip, the GuangDong trip with uncle, still trying to figure out some course selection out, that boy's health condition and so on >_< I'm so tired... I'll post pics up later, dun have my cell with me.

Music: Lady Gaga So Happy I Could Die - Lady Gaga

So In Love~~

() M g~ I'm sooo in love with my bf lol ^-^ My bf (best friend) Britt~ is sooo amusing!! and totally awesome!! I think I fell in love with this new shop that I usually never go to. Can't wait to see her in Oct u_u (hopefully she's coming back for our bday celebration) if not I'll be seeing her in Christmas. >_<>_> THe mom luvs talking but she never say her point. She would just repeat over and over again, go back to unfinish ideas, then lags awhile, and so on.... u_u I can't believe I have the patient to seat through it for over 30 minutes. I think it comes from that trainning from my boss. x_x So then, went to this other mall by myself and did bit of shopping. Didn't get anything tho, I only got "that" lol~ omg~ Im sooo in luv with Britt~ lol and did I mention that I'm in love with this (b) friend Brittany? She's just amazing~ I'll miss her sooo much when she;s gone. T^T

n yea.. just got news that these I guess friends who are (I think) really really clingy is clinging with us to ShangHai after the english camp in Yangshou >___> I don't know but this is getting annyoing kinda, cuz the ShangHai thing is suppose to be a family thing, n these 2 ppls (kids) are just tagging along when they can go to Tawian with the rest of the campers. >__>

Cancelled

I was going to have my lesson today. I even cleaned my gu zheng and was planning to bring it to my teacher for tuning after so long. But a friend of my parents' (excuse my language, dumbfounded) son decided to do something crazy and hit his head. He is now in the hopsital and the doctors are preparing for the surgrey. The thing is, hopstials' doctors/ nurses don't treat patients until after they waited for about 6 hours, even if they got hit by a car and lost half of their body/face, it's like it's in their norm or something to be always lagging. So apparently (I think) he got treated almost immdiately which also means that it could very much be a life and death situation. *sigh* I'm not very fond of him but I really do hope he'll survive and live differently from now on. I just didn't like how dad was trying to blame it on Jojo. If that was suppose to be funny, it really wasn't. It was just plain immature, this has nothing to do with Jojo. That guy was already kinda crazy to begin with and is not like Jojo was a good friend of his, to say that it was Jojo's influence that caused this accident just arg annoying and down-right wrong >_> omg~ and the way how Jojo handled this false-accusation mad things even worse. He just made it even more convincing that he was the guy to blame, exactly what my father wanted perhaps? I don't know.

So Jojo and Esy had mandarin class today. I had to go too but I couldnt just cancel my teacher. Nobody understand why I have to go to gu zheng class u_u. ANyways, so I couldnt go to the manadrin and they can't drive me to gu zheng class cuz it's at opposite direction and the time was conflicting, which was fine. Esy and jojo takes one car, and my dad and I will take the other car. Suppose to anyways, but my dad couldn't drive at this moment, for real legit reasons. His friend wants him to go to the hopsital with him, he even ofter to drive him there. So it's alrite, you'll think my mom can drive me right? WRONG. I guess she really wants to be there for her friend too. So she told dad to drive me to gu zheng and that friend can bring her instead. So they argued for a bit. Dad offer to drive me at the end, but it'll be really risky with his current condition. I was uncomfortable with this idea and so was mom. Still, mom tried to get esy to drive me there, but it just don't make sense. She told her to just drop me off nearby and I can just walk there since I still have time. After class's done, I can walk to some McDonald and stay for there an hour or so. Or, I can just wait in my teacher's house for an hour, she wouldn't mind. >____> *sigh* I actually don't mind walking and I rather stay out at night then having to bother my teacher and bring her any kinds of inconvience. But I need to bring my gu zheng today for tuning and there's no way I can carry that around. u_u

So mom was really pissed at whatever she was pissed at. So the aruging went on for a bit until I stepped in and offer to call my teacher for a cancellation. My dad said no, it's unnecessary, besides it's not very nice to cancel someone 20 mins earlier. I went upstair while they argued some more. Finally, my father came up and told me to cancel it.

I called~ My teacher was very understanding, I told her about the situation, and she was very nice about it. Although she did sound a bit annoyed~ what does it matter though, I'm the one who has to talk to her, not mom, she wouldn't know. >_> So I told them that I cancelled it and my mom was SOOOO happy. <_< if I just quit gu zheng altogether, I wonder if that'll make her happier.

What I don't understand is that why wont she drive me and then go to the hopstial herself. She thought Jojo was crazy for suggesting this idea, like omg go to the hopstial myself, are you high? Like why not? *sigh* With all due respect to my mom, I just think that she should be more respectful to my teachers, she take things for granted way too easily. Me and my process/ learning is never a proity to her. She only wants to receive the praise and glory from her peers but always gives me the feeling that she don't want to pay for my lessons. >_> *sigh*

I don't know. u_u This is the last straw though. If this happens one more time, I will have to confront her. >_> and I don't know, I don't believe in the sorries anymore. x_x

Chasing.

I know it's not about where you're gonna be, the things you're gonna have, the harvest when it comes to life and being sucessful, it's about who u'll become ~ but right now, at this moment, I really feel like I need all that. I need a bigger space, a neater, a more positive enviornment to help me think. I just can't wait anymore. At this rate, we're all gonna be staying here. T^T Really really really wanna move. I want my own space. u_u *sigh* I still have to loan from OSAP and pay them back after I gard. T_T I really want a high paying job. I feel like those fishes in those supermarket. Caged with 6 other big fishes in the same space and everyone is like in your face all the time. *sigh* Study harder. Work harder. Train harder. Forget modelling, dancing, bento boxes, bejewel, music, and my love for anything else. What makes me happy right now is that space and if that's the price, I am prepare to pay it.

What we face may look insurmountable. But I learned something from all those years of training and competing. I learned something from all those sets and reps when I didn't think I could lift another ounce of weight. What I learned is that we are always stronger than we know. Arnold Schwarzenegger



Before I go to sleep and start fresh tomorrow, I just want to add this item to my prayer list tonight. Although I don't know her, a friend of my bf is a friend mine. Tho there's absoutely nothing I can do to ease the pain, I shall remember it in prayers.

Music: I Dreamed A Dream - Glee

Redo

Got home at almost 1 am yesterday from the meeting... *sigh* just do my best I guess...

I'm not feeling so well right now. Maybe I only got 6 hours of sleep today? Maybe I talked too much during baddy? omg~ Seriously, my employer is like starting some type of cult lol, I mean I always knew wanted to start them but she never fails to amuse me. She made this herbal type of tea thing that smelled sooo nasty~ she said~ "only Christians can drink it" lol omg, I think I forgot it in the subway on the way home, I didn't get to have a zip lolol

Ranny wasnt home u_u, I think he was out with his friends. He did call me back but I was too focus on research, didn't even notice the vib. form my cell. >_> FB Stalked him a bit, just to see how he's doing. I then found this little Rita girl lol Just a friend? or just got friendlier? They'll be going out to see a movie n such. Thing is, this girl is 14. What is Ranny thinking? lolol But w.e~ do wut u want, it's yr life~ It'll bee really really weird to see Ranny with a little girl tho, like 6/7 years age gap. I dun wanna think about it anymore~ too weird~

Extremely Annoyed

Where do I start? Jojo's a sad baby hypocrite with a fat-ass big mouth who vomits slander. His words reflect exactly who he is as a person. Dumbfounded, rude, immature~ o~ it descirbes him so well~ Anyways moving on, he's just a jealous angry little boy who has no place nor business here.

So~ Mom's computer is too retarded to function. Both my mouse are broken. My laptop is currently and has been really gay. Things are just going so well until STUPID COMP DIDNT SAVE MY WORK AFTER I PRESSED SAVE EVERY 15 MIN!! So I lost everything that I was doing today. So nvm, I'm not even close to half done anymore. All thanks that retarded piece of junk that can't even save properly. I'm all down with getting back to work but with a broken mouse? I can always borrow from the other 6 family members, but honestly, I don't want their help.

>_> *sigh* Just gotta suck it up and do it all over again. Still kinda piss. Have to teach baddy to little kids too, I think I'm just gonna make them do laps for I dunno 20 minutes? n get them to do warm up for another 10 mins? Then finally throw birdies at them for the remaining 30 mins. >_> I don't even know where that place is and the TTC service on sat is such a joke. <_<

Too bad Alex's offline >_>, if he's online I wouldnt have typed so much. Brit's gone now too. T^T I just hope Ranny's home tonite u_u

So I didn't blog yesterday~ but I did took a few pictures. My parents' friend from HK came and they all contribute to this extremely annoyed blog. I don't think I would have been so annoyed if my parents didnt ask me to do some pretty annoying stuff. I had Gu Zheng lesson too right after and as a result of my bro driving >_> we got lost and so I was late.

Sometimes I just think my mom's being really disrepectable to my teachers >_> o the stuff she ask me to do to them... sigh u_u she just doesn't know better w.e~ Lame excuse~ N so they pick me up like 20ish mins late, I took some other pics.

D.o.C.t.O.r

Wow~ I'm blogging almost every single day, it's really scaring me. I blame market research, it's sooo much work T_T~ *sigh* I guess work is still better than no work. Anyways~ Moving on~ I went to the doctor today to get my shot. <_< It was like whatever, just get it over with it~

I'm not sure why, but I have this huge biase against my family doctor and just doctors and nurses in general. From my experience, family doctor, normal doctor, specialized doctors, and so on, are pretty much all the same. Why? Because they are some of the most uncaring people you'll ever meet. As lease for me, this is the case~

I detest doctors so much (God forbid) if I ever get cancer or whatever. I would rather die then go see them. I know it's a bit too extreme, but it's somewhat true. I would do almost anything to avoid seeing a doctor. I think I even ran away from a doctor once to avoid getting a shot lol. I know their own lives are stressful and insane but the way they treat people are just so ironic, so unprofessional. Patients to them are just another item waiting to be check off. They only spend so much time and money to be a doctor is 'caues of family pressure to achieve this supposive respectable occupation that'll bring honour to the family and their own interest in experimenting with life.

So, I've finally decided to see a specialized doctor after visiting the pharmacist today. I gotta book my appointment asap too, have to go to HK soon. Even though I really dislike that doctor as well, I trust my pharmacist's professionlism and his overall character. He's honestly one of the nicest guy I have ever met. Compare to those doctor fools who only knows their little section of the book and nothing else, he is such an amazing pro. Even though this is my second time seeing him, I truely truely respect him. I will take his advice to revisit that specialist dude. I have so far rejected everyone's advice on seeing that >_> dude (just mainly mom, family, and mom's friends), hopefully I won't be disappointed with the results. <_<

Funny Day

So yesterday's supposive meeting was rearrange to today due to unforseen circumstances. However, unforseen circumstances remains unforseen and so I was pick up an hour and 15 mins later than the orginal time. Knowing that my boss is indeed a busy woman, her schedule is pack with meetings after meetings, I waited patiently of course. :P Now comes the funny part~ The person who pick me up had to buy milk for my boss and she has another meeting right after mine. So we went to a supermarket pretty close by my house right~ All was well untill when we came back to the car! It wouldn't start. I was holding a box with 4 bags of milk while the guy was trying to get his car to start. Apparently super hot weather can mess up your car. To make matters more amusing, he forgot to bring his cell andI left mine at home 'cause I had to leave in such a rush. Luckily, there was a pay-phone that works in the plaza. We quickly called to notify her of the situation. She was going to come save us BUT the guy had her car keys! lol So we were stuck there with with milk at 32 degree. I was like melting x_x Thankfully, the car finally started working. It was too late though still, my boss was already late for her next meeting. So he drove me back home and they called like at 11 somthing pm and told me that they're coming right now, then we held the meeting, in the car. >_> I was watching a movie too at that time. Oh well~ wow it's almost 1am, I still have to wash dishes. o_o

Current Music: Stick Wit U - PCD

gasp~ I'm blogging again o_o

So for the past fews days/weeks, there's something that kinda bothers me. I finally have some time out from work and other important personal matters (staying #1. in bejewel :P) to type it out. I don't really know where to begin >_> life's just complicated.

1) I don't get how people can be so comfortable with posting private pictures on fb? Private as in the type of photos that Miley Cyrus pulled, which included the "hey I look good in underwear~" and the " baby I'm semi-naked" type of pics? I thought only Milye Cyrus and physco wannabes of Cyrus are willing to post their pics like that shamelessly. But I guess I thought wrong, I just don't understand why a certain someone >_> would do that... *sigh* and the following comments were just so wrong. >_> It is your life though and although I'm in no position to judge you, I hope you are prepare for whatever consequences that those uploads might bring you. Oh and please~ don't think by blocking me on fb, I will not have access to your fb.





I'll leave the rest for later. If I have time :P too hungry~

Summer Retreat

It was alright~ It could have been worse so thank GoD! We didn't do much cept movies and basketball. The food was good, our rooms were okay, the place could have been better, but meh~ It's a good getaway from work T_T~ Speaking of which, I should really get back to it. Meeting on Monday again T_T sighh... I'm really trying to convince myself that I really want this work expereince. It's for the sake of my resume and a really good reference~It'll be a big step toward my career in HR later x_x I really want this~ even if I don't get pay T_T Yet, I can't help complaining lol T_T The tasks that I was ask to do just doesn't seem realistic u_u, but who wants to agrue with their boss? *sigh* u_u Just hang in there I suppose... x_x It's only for just July.

I'm also being distracted by really cool sephora stuff. lol Found some really well-reviewed product that I am interested in, but they're all kinda expensive. I am willing to bet on these products but my sister thinks I should get a sample first. SO do they just randomly give out free samples? o.O I don't go shopping often, or at all. lol

ANyways~ here are some pics for that place~ :P enjoy~

The first day~ it looked nothing like this a day later lololol ~

A close up.... lol

The CarWash FundRasing Activity~~we didn't have enough resources, so instead of staying under the sun cleaning, I was cheering for them in the shade~ ^-^ I gave words of encouragment like "go sis~ go~ if u cant do it no one can" n "hey, sis u missed a spot~ " >_> n then she started throwing things at me~ ooo good times~
This is my teammate who asked me to help him take a pic during his car washing break :P

and that's it for today~