Thursday, July 14, 2011
Friday, July 8, 2011
Confession
So my stats final is coming up right, I really need to study. Especially since I mad fail the midterm with half the class~ The class average was 59%.Even if they bell it up, it wouldn't do that good for me. u_u So I really need to get perfect in like everything.
Work-wise, I have SOOO much to do! Just so much on my plate. T_T Have to rush something done tonight for my one and only~ u_u *sigh*
Social Life? Seeing this friend of mine a lot lately o_o Like every other day. I see his parents too, I play badminton with his father. So I don't know~ I know he likes me tho I'm not sure if he's just playing or what not. Frankly speaking, I don't want a relationship, and I hope I made it clear with him. I don't think he wants one either. But if this is just all fun and games then there should be some type of boundaries? If not, then I should set some. Hm.... o.O
Work-wise, I have SOOO much to do! Just so much on my plate. T_T Have to rush something done tonight for my one and only~ u_u *sigh*
Social Life? Seeing this friend of mine a lot lately o_o Like every other day. I see his parents too, I play badminton with his father. So I don't know~ I know he likes me tho I'm not sure if he's just playing or what not. Frankly speaking, I don't want a relationship, and I hope I made it clear with him. I don't think he wants one either. But if this is just all fun and games then there should be some type of boundaries? If not, then I should set some. Hm.... o.O
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
One minute I'm laughing about Rainbow Bat Man, the next, I crash in disappointment. I went out to see this old friend of mine, did some stats, watched a movie, drove in mist (I mean mist! couldn't see a thing), had so much great laughter. After that, I had to drive myself back home in this HUGE thunderstorm. I thought the mist was bad, but the thunderstorm was SOOO BAD!! I literally couldn't see a thing. When I was turning into my street I don't know, I think I felt a very very small bomb on my car (like I hit something) O__O I am praying to God that it was nothing, it was becuz the road was bumby or something. I don't recall seeing anything. There were A LOT of rain, but when I turn, I turned pretty slowly, and I just don't recall seeing anything there. And I don't know why anyone would be there in a middle of a crazy thunderstorm? If not then, it may be a small animal or something? o.O It decides to take advantage of this pouring rain? yea... Or (and I think the most likely) a small branch or something, or something dropped something, a bottle or I dunno...
I got out of the car to go inside the house, that few second was enough to soak me. That's how bad it is out there. u_u
*sigh* and now... I feel so down. My boss lectured me the entire day today. Even after I got home, she called and discovered more issues with me. *sigh* I really don't know how to handle it. I know that she kept repeating herself cuz I'm not doing it. But sigh I dunno. u___________u sigggggggggggggggggggggggggh
I got out of the car to go inside the house, that few second was enough to soak me. That's how bad it is out there. u_u
*sigh* and now... I feel so down. My boss lectured me the entire day today. Even after I got home, she called and discovered more issues with me. *sigh* I really don't know how to handle it. I know that she kept repeating herself cuz I'm not doing it. But sigh I dunno. u___________u sigggggggggggggggggggggggggh
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Aftermath
So the exam didn't go well. I should have known that the ADMS ppls/courses/exams always, I MEAN ALWAYS~ find some ways to screw it over. I don't wanna repeat how they screw me over (tho I admit, I could have done better on my part, it definately wasn't my best u_u)
So I started preparing for finals. I got a quiz next week or something. *sigh* Getting some help from a friend on Wed, so doing my prep now. I still have to send my draft for the catalog for work by tonight. X_X So much stuff to do.
Today, I went to pick up my grad present for brit. If I have time and finds my mom's ipod touch lying around, I'll take a pic of it and post it lol. n omg~~ So I was at pmall today, didn't expect to buy anything else. I went into the CD store and usually, even if I want to buy something, the prices are a total turn off. But today, I found Alan's Best Of Album!!! For A REALLY REALLY GOOD PRICE!! It was still a bit expensive, but for the deal that I was getting, :D:D:D ^-^ I'm sooo happy. I have her album just standing there on my desk right now, her smile is too sweet to just put it away. Now that I think about it, the last album I got was FIR's Love Diva. It was like 2/3 years ago? lol I don't know~ I also saw Koda Kumi and I kinda wanna get her tour stuff. Cept, I find that their stuff is not compatible to our DVD, which means that I can only watch it on comp. But if I can watch it on comp, mine was well just youtube it something. Hm~ I do like Koda Kumi, there was a point in time (I think it was during her Kingdom era) that I debated and debated if I should get her CD. I'm still debating but she doesn't have the same appeal as Alan where something in me is just itching to own it. lol If it was a different CD cover, like her walking or something, I don't think I would have gotten it. hmm.. Let me find a picture, and you'll see what I mean.
http://images4.fanpop.com/image/photos/18900000/alan-new-album-JAPAN-PREMIUM-BEST-MORE-alan-18980131-400-400.jpg
lol like how can you say no to that. lol In comparison to this:
http://www.google.ca/imgres?imgurl=http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-UWACCvPqwYE/TVagnlUh6rI/AAAAAAAASgU/REdWRo5WMiY/s400/kk2007.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.twins-azalea.co.cc/2011/02/dvd-koda-kumi-koda-kumi-live-tour-2007.html&usg=__GoFFqN8vZRDJMfATBk6ibjOYxJ0=&h=400&w=283&sz=41&hl=en&start=0&zoom=1&tbnid=BTmj9dpJyg63iM:&tbnh=123&tbnw=86&ei=208BTpr9Hcm_tgfx2oT-DQ&prev=/search%3Fq%3Dkoda%2Bkumi%2Btour%2Bdvd%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26biw%3D1024%26bih%3D556%26tbm%3Disch&um=1&itbs=1&iact=rc&dur=392&page=1&ndsp=19&ved=1t:429,r:14,s:0&tx=34&ty=65&biw=1024&bih=556
So I started preparing for finals. I got a quiz next week or something. *sigh* Getting some help from a friend on Wed, so doing my prep now. I still have to send my draft for the catalog for work by tonight. X_X So much stuff to do.
Today, I went to pick up my grad present for brit. If I have time and finds my mom's ipod touch lying around, I'll take a pic of it and post it lol. n omg~~ So I was at pmall today, didn't expect to buy anything else. I went into the CD store and usually, even if I want to buy something, the prices are a total turn off. But today, I found Alan's Best Of Album!!! For A REALLY REALLY GOOD PRICE!! It was still a bit expensive, but for the deal that I was getting, :D:D:D ^-^ I'm sooo happy. I have her album just standing there on my desk right now, her smile is too sweet to just put it away. Now that I think about it, the last album I got was FIR's Love Diva. It was like 2/3 years ago? lol I don't know~ I also saw Koda Kumi and I kinda wanna get her tour stuff. Cept, I find that their stuff is not compatible to our DVD, which means that I can only watch it on comp. But if I can watch it on comp, mine was well just youtube it something. Hm~ I do like Koda Kumi, there was a point in time (I think it was during her Kingdom era) that I debated and debated if I should get her CD. I'm still debating but she doesn't have the same appeal as Alan where something in me is just itching to own it. lol If it was a different CD cover, like her walking or something, I don't think I would have gotten it. hmm.. Let me find a picture, and you'll see what I mean.
http://images4.fanpop.com/image/photos/18900000/alan-new-album-JAPAN-PREMIUM-BEST-MORE-alan-18980131-400-400.jpg
lol like how can you say no to that. lol In comparison to this:
http://www.google.ca/imgres?imgurl=http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-UWACCvPqwYE/TVagnlUh6rI/AAAAAAAASgU/REdWRo5WMiY/s400/kk2007.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.twins-azalea.co.cc/2011/02/dvd-koda-kumi-koda-kumi-live-tour-2007.html&usg=__GoFFqN8vZRDJMfATBk6ibjOYxJ0=&h=400&w=283&sz=41&hl=en&start=0&zoom=1&tbnid=BTmj9dpJyg63iM:&tbnh=123&tbnw=86&ei=208BTpr9Hcm_tgfx2oT-DQ&prev=/search%3Fq%3Dkoda%2Bkumi%2Btour%2Bdvd%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26biw%3D1024%26bih%3D556%26tbm%3Disch&um=1&itbs=1&iact=rc&dur=392&page=1&ndsp=19&ved=1t:429,r:14,s:0&tx=34&ty=65&biw=1024&bih=556
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Stats II Exam
Soo Midterms on Sat~ And lately, I feel so so so guilty, cuz I just feel like I havent study enough yet. Instead of studying, my eyes are on the net looking at bags and shoes and sales lol x_x I told myself that I am not going shopping until after midterms but that doesn't keep my heart from flying there. lol *sigh* I did all 5 chapters MC test bank yesterday. It was so cruel. lol
omg~ Funny thing that happened today. ommmmggg~ so I made an appointment with my TA (kinda) (he's my age, if not, then he's a year younger than me) for like extra help cuz I like failed the MC. lol~ Long story short, he agreed to meet me for 1 hour only and he reminded me (which I really did totally forgot) his work hours. So you see~ it was all professional and just business ~ Still, my sister thought that appointment was inappropriate. Considering that it was not at his work hours, we met elsewhere (Timmys) instead of the school... but that was becuz it was more convenient for him ( well both of us actually) And in a way, I get it~ It doesn't look good for both of us~ So it won't happen again~ Especially after what happened today LOLOL
omg... where do I begin? Ok so~ He arrived a bit late and we got right into regression analysis. Suddenly, he received a call and he was like "I'm helping a friend with stats rite now~ ttul~ lunch after (w.e the convo was)" lol
Some time later, some older guy walked in and he was like "hey~ how come you're here?" My TA responded "helping a friend with stats" Then he responded something and immediately, the TA got really frustrated and angry that he was disturbing us. He made this gesture to show him that like I was there. But he doesn't seem to get it, he kept talking to him, until you can tell that the TA was really really annoyed. Then he like asked to borrow money from him or something~ So my TA pull up some money and gave it to him, and he left. My TA was p-i-s-s-e-d! lol that guy like robbed him. lol The entire time, I was just trying to pretend like I didn't notice anything.
So the studying continued, however, I think the TA still felt annoy and he was not very umm... he was not in a good mood. THEN Suddenly!!! That guy came back. He took a seat beside my TA, turned his body toward us, and was like watching us. lolol omg it was soooo awk!! lol I don't even know what he was doing, he was just sitting there watching us. We were both like o.O - pretending not to notice anything, just studying the formulas and books. So for like a good 20-30 minutes, that's what he was doing. I didn't even look at him cuz again, I was pretending to not notice anything.
After some time, he finally left. When the one hour is up, my TA was like "o~ where did he go?" SO I said, "o~ I think your friend left already (I only said his friend cuz I know it couldn't be his father)" Then he said, "lol, that's my uncle."
loool~ So jokes~ I don't know why, but I get a strange feeling that his uncle made some comments about me or something. I have no idea, I tried not to eardrop. I will also withhold comments I have about his uncle out of respect for my TA ~of course~ lol
Anyway, I think people (like my sister or even maybe that uncle guy) think that there might be something going on, but it's all in their heads. lol My TA is definitely a good guy, I would write a letter of reference for him, but he's my TA. That's that~
omg~ Funny thing that happened today. ommmmggg~ so I made an appointment with my TA (kinda) (he's my age, if not, then he's a year younger than me) for like extra help cuz I like failed the MC. lol~ Long story short, he agreed to meet me for 1 hour only and he reminded me (which I really did totally forgot) his work hours. So you see~ it was all professional and just business ~ Still, my sister thought that appointment was inappropriate. Considering that it was not at his work hours, we met elsewhere (Timmys) instead of the school... but that was becuz it was more convenient for him ( well both of us actually) And in a way, I get it~ It doesn't look good for both of us~ So it won't happen again~ Especially after what happened today LOLOL
omg... where do I begin? Ok so~ He arrived a bit late and we got right into regression analysis. Suddenly, he received a call and he was like "I'm helping a friend with stats rite now~ ttul~ lunch after (w.e the convo was)" lol
Some time later, some older guy walked in and he was like "hey~ how come you're here?" My TA responded "helping a friend with stats" Then he responded something and immediately, the TA got really frustrated and angry that he was disturbing us. He made this gesture to show him that like I was there. But he doesn't seem to get it, he kept talking to him, until you can tell that the TA was really really annoyed. Then he like asked to borrow money from him or something~ So my TA pull up some money and gave it to him, and he left. My TA was p-i-s-s-e-d! lol that guy like robbed him. lol The entire time, I was just trying to pretend like I didn't notice anything.
So the studying continued, however, I think the TA still felt annoy and he was not very umm... he was not in a good mood. THEN Suddenly!!! That guy came back. He took a seat beside my TA, turned his body toward us, and was like watching us. lolol omg it was soooo awk!! lol I don't even know what he was doing, he was just sitting there watching us. We were both like o.O - pretending not to notice anything, just studying the formulas and books. So for like a good 20-30 minutes, that's what he was doing. I didn't even look at him cuz again, I was pretending to not notice anything.
After some time, he finally left. When the one hour is up, my TA was like "o~ where did he go?" SO I said, "o~ I think your friend left already (I only said his friend cuz I know it couldn't be his father)" Then he said, "lol, that's my uncle."
loool~ So jokes~ I don't know why, but I get a strange feeling that his uncle made some comments about me or something. I have no idea, I tried not to eardrop. I will also withhold comments I have about his uncle out of respect for my TA ~of course~ lol
Anyway, I think people (like my sister or even maybe that uncle guy) think that there might be something going on, but it's all in their heads. lol My TA is definitely a good guy, I would write a letter of reference for him, but he's my TA. That's that~
Saturday, June 11, 2011
I'm really really upset right now... I want to play badminton. There's a tourney this Sunday and I need practice. But my immature father decides to have a little fun and lectures me on crap before I can take the car to go. Crap like you already played yesterday, do you know your own family's schedule today? I didn't even know why I even ask... >_> Should have just took the car and they call me. They don't need the other car, he was just trying to make it hard for me and I won't go. Congratz~ You got what you wanted, I'm not going. The reason is this:
1) I have to pay to play, so every minute we spend on this meaningless convo counts. I'm using my own money (I don't even have an income >_>) so if I'm not getting the full amount of playing time, I usually just don't go.
2) I RATHER NOT TALK TO YOU THAN PLAY BADMINTON. I love this sport but if it means to talk to you and all, I rather not play. At this point, I don't ever want to speak to you again. You gave church/fellowship such a bad name to me. Your style and your way of behaviour makes me sick. Yes, you're a hardworking father trying to control 5 children. However, I cannot stand your sick humour. You always complain how I never speak my mind, but that's because I don't think the environment is safe to speak on what was really on my mind.
I am eager to leave this house, to break the stupid dumb outdated 60s rules. To rid of your sick influences. I don't need your permission or your approval to make my own decision and live my life. I hate how you control freaks tries to dictates my life. I use to think that I owe my live to my parents, I use to be grateful that my parents love me enough to tolerate me and not have me thrown out the window like what happened to my neighbors. But now I realize that I owe you people nothing. Instead, you owe me A LOT MORE! I don't want to use the word hate, but I strongly dislike you people rite now. What you've done to me.
I don't know what to say. I just want to get out of this house. It's not just me, Esther and Joyce, we all want to leave.
Frige, I can't believe I tried asking permission to live my own life. SO I was like "fine, I'll walk there! Take the damn car to the many damn fellowships that we have to go!"
1) I have to pay to play, so every minute we spend on this meaningless convo counts. I'm using my own money (I don't even have an income >_>) so if I'm not getting the full amount of playing time, I usually just don't go.
2) I RATHER NOT TALK TO YOU THAN PLAY BADMINTON. I love this sport but if it means to talk to you and all, I rather not play. At this point, I don't ever want to speak to you again. You gave church/fellowship such a bad name to me. Your style and your way of behaviour makes me sick. Yes, you're a hardworking father trying to control 5 children. However, I cannot stand your sick humour. You always complain how I never speak my mind, but that's because I don't think the environment is safe to speak on what was really on my mind.
I am eager to leave this house, to break the stupid dumb outdated 60s rules. To rid of your sick influences. I don't need your permission or your approval to make my own decision and live my life. I hate how you control freaks tries to dictates my life. I use to think that I owe my live to my parents, I use to be grateful that my parents love me enough to tolerate me and not have me thrown out the window like what happened to my neighbors. But now I realize that I owe you people nothing. Instead, you owe me A LOT MORE! I don't want to use the word hate, but I strongly dislike you people rite now. What you've done to me.
I don't know what to say. I just want to get out of this house. It's not just me, Esther and Joyce, we all want to leave.
Frige, I can't believe I tried asking permission to live my own life. SO I was like "fine, I'll walk there! Take the damn car to the many damn fellowships that we have to go!"
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