Tangled

First week of summer school just got started and it was BORRINNNNNNNGGGG!! I think Im gonna drop OHS and take something else. Cuz the prof cannot teach AT ALL!! It's not just boring it's draining. It really feels like a waste of time.

Anyway, I saw Tangled yesterday. Yes, it came out on DVD like a long time ago, but I didn't get to see it till yesterday. I just wanna say that Mandy Moore is like one my fav fav fav actress~ and Repunzel is like my fav princess. Why? Cuz it's my first big story I can read and understand all by myself in Chinese. ^^ll *sigh*

um~ O yea~ I now have confidence - in stats that's 95%I think (lol)that Ranny's gf is indeed stalking me on fb. lool SHe does it pretty frequently~ Like whenever I have an update she'll be checking on my profile lol using Ranny's account of course. But see, Ranny hardly ever uses fb and if he does, he'll be just replying to a comment or getting some YTSA club promotion out. Unless all of a sudden, after he get a new gf, he is now all curious about his ex~ LOL which is not likely :P Oh~ I know him too well~ lol

I'm not sure if I blog about this already. So I'll just keep all my side-comments to myself. *sigh* Ranny's a special one lol.

Sooo yeaa~ It's been some time since I posted pics~ so I'll post a today.







lol was gonna post more.. but it wont let me so maybe next time~~ lol

yay~`

So all the marks are out!! and YAY I GOT AN A in Roots of Canada or something like that~ And this essay AI wrote actucally qualified to compete for the William West something Prize lol!! Although the prize is nothing huge, but what an honour to be selected~ Top 2 papers in class!! You know how big my class is? lol BIG!!

Overall, I'm pretty happy with the results this year. The lowest mark was like a C+ from OD >_> but I was sick for that whole week (fever n everything) couldn't study. u_u Everything else was not bad too~ Thank God~ lol my psy prof bumped me up to a B. So even though I almost failed my final I end up with a B. ^-^ yay~~ OMG n econ was a shocker too~ cuz the final was soo cruel!! we all walked out the exam room shooking our heads~ sighing~ n alot of ppls failed/ did really bad. I actually did ok~ N honestly, I didnt study that much. yayyyy~~~

Very very happy~ Sigh* As for Ranny, he's in HK right now. I called him for advice recently and turn out that I made a long distance call. It's funny cuz even now, after all these time, the fact that he's sharing his life with someone else is still really bothering me. u_u n to be honest, I think I'll just have to live with it.

After finding out that he's in HK, n chances are, he's with his gf. Somehow, something inside of me changed. I don't want to feel sorry for myself, but I can't get the whole thing out of my system either. Instead, I am now obsessing to be something. I have started cross-country again every morning (well.. Mon-Fri lol) at 7am, cuz I wanna be skinny n pretty n energetic. Gonna get my room cleaned up. Gonna practice everyday to put my cons on. Gonna do this and that. But no matter what I do, I always seems to be thinking about him. Pathetic eh~ o~ love makes us all fools~


Current Music: Failling - Tyler Ward

another one....

I've been listening to a lot of songs lately and suddenly, the thought of Ranny and his new girl came up in my mind again. So I told myself, I don't want you back! I don't want you back! I don't want you back! I don't know if I'm pretending or what not, but I just want to have a peace of mind. Every time he comes up in my mind, he triggers this whole mixture of emotion and attitude - hurt, happiness, anger, thankfulness, jealousy (gasp), patheticalism (lol no such world but o well), love, hate, annoyance, I can go on and on. Point is, I don't want you back. Just leave already. You have no place here. I don't need you anymore. I can make my own decision. I don't need your advice. I don't need or want your entertainment. You're free to go! Dismissed!

I saw strangers again by wongfu production, and it was difficult to watch. For them, it was a year and a half. For me and Ranny, it was over 4 years (not including the meeting and chase stage lol) I really hate these stages they say, maybe it's cuz they're so real, I really hate it. So so much. I would never ever want a relationship like that. It's too late for me and Ranny tho, we're strangers now. He got a new girl. I really don't know what to say... I don't know what to think. I really don't know how to deal with this.

You know how you would wish to live at this moment forever. Especially for youth,we wish that these years will go on n on ~ Well, I wish the opposite, I wish time will pass even faster. I wish time will really take flight~ I wish in a blink of an eye we'll all be old~ I think I wanna return to my heavenly father.

I'm not afraid of getting hurt, but this pain is just eating me. It leaves me so confuse. *sigh* but the break up is done. The storm has passed. It could only get better.

happy easter weekend everyone

dunno y~ but I feel like crying...

Dear Blogspot

Thanks to my good friend Micah, I came to the realization of the consequences. As a result, I have decided to accept it. I can no longer deny or fool myself, I will now live with the consequences and bare with the hardship that it might bring.


On a more positive note, Justin Beiber's Baby~ is completed~ However, I have no vid camera~ lool But Micah is coming over next week to play some music, so I'll ask him to bring his and we'll record something. Hm~ He plays erhu tho so I wonder how that's gonna turn out lol

Done and Done

SO I finished all my finals today. It was so cruel. How they had 2 exams on a Sunday morning 10am and another one at 7pm -10pm. I drove to school today and I drove my friend home too, since buses only comes like once every hour at time or not even. Turns out he didn't know where he live, which I still find it amusing. SO I spend like an hour trying him around and finally got it. Then when I was coming home, I took a wrong turn and I had to drive round and round again. That and also some dangerous situation where this car was going to turn left, but wasn't. Its head was just sitting on my lane and I was coming down my lane at 70. It was actually really scary. I didn't have time to think, I just cut onto the other side, THANK GOD there were no cars there or else I would have hit someone. I should have like beeped the car. >_>

Anyway the exams. Oh my! Both exams were just cruel. I have no idea how I did T_T Somehow I'm not as depressed though. I think I'm bogged down bout Ranny lol Hopefully it's the last of him on Raining Jewels. *Sigh* Its funny how one text, one phone call can get me so happy. It's like I'm on drug or something. Another txt (just completely random like "cool~ nice") can completely loses that happy, excited, smiley effect. The mood swing is getting annoying. Even if I say I don't want to think about it anymore, 1 month down the row will be the same. I really want to forget about him. Him and what's her face. u_u sigh~

lol econd study: tax

lol So I was just studying my econ exam and it was on tax payroll. Who (employer or employee) gets more and so on~ and I was just thinking to myself, 'I dun want to pay tax. lool If I make more I'll have to pay a craze amount of tax (especially in CND. So then I went to do bible study and guess what it was on?

“This is also why you pay taxes, for the authorities are God’s servants, who give their full time to governing. Give to everyone what you owe them: If you owe taxes, pay taxes; if revenue, then revenue; if respect, then respect; if honor, then honor.” - Romans 13:6-7

o_o I think God is speaking to me~ lool :P