THe 8 Blessings and giving thanks

wow~ I haven't blog for so long and what a strange time I choose to blog~ The morning of my morning midterm exam.

I don't remember my password but blogger remembered and was already signed in. o_o Well... I've actually really want to blog about this last Sunday, I was just so touch and inspired by the morning service. It's a total revelation.

As you know, I got backstabbed by this so-call-friend of mine. Long story short, I felt hurt and betray. I remember calling Ranny and I told him how confused I was. It was as if everyone in his world was evil and got plans to step on you to get ahead. I have my fair share of those incidents. I never took it personally, until that day I guess, I had enough. As a result, I turned down the crappy job they had to offer and I went my own way. Me and K (lets call her that for now) are on longer friends, which neither of us care.

So the topic for that SUnday morning was this, from Matthew 5:
³ “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
⁴ Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
⁵ Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
⁶ Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
⁷ Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
⁸ Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
⁹ Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called children of God.
¹⁰ Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

¹¹ “Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. ¹² Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

As I apply for jobs and move my way up to the chain, there are going to be lots and lots more people like K. To not think so is naive. To hide and to pretend is naive. Still, it is important to choose what is to do what is right and just. Even if they take everything you ever worked so hard for, destroyed your reputation and stole your achievements, be pure in heart and trust in the Lord.

On a random note :P lol
~I thank God for everything He has given me~

Lately~ I am tempted to purchase Adele's 21 o_o lol I don't know why but I've been listening to a lot of her music lately. I also want to watch 3D Glee X_X!! *sigh* My poor hard-earn-money~ THere are also these really cool hot blazer that I've been *_* but u know~ my room is kinda messy so until I clean I'm not getting anything. 'Sides it's really expensive >__> Like really really expensive *sigh* Maybe when I get a stable income then I can afford it.

So my father notice a change in behaviour in me~ He even called me out on it yesterday~ So whatever it is, it must be huge~ because my father usually don't notice anything about me really. Although I think I have my parents convinced that it's my demanding work that I am dating and perhaps the reason why I'm always so happy suddenly is because my boss has already driven me to insanity.

So my schedule looks hectic next week. I mean HECTIC! It's crazy, like I have to make time for family dinner. lol Not even bible study just eating at home. Maybe I should make more of an effort to spend more time with my family. So here's wut it looks like:

Monday - work, potluck dinner ^_<
Tuesday - badminton, chilling out with ya know~
Wednesday - work, tai chi, gu zheng (trying to fit everything in)
Thursday - gu zheng at night
Friday - maybe scrabble, maybe not
Saturday - Don't know yet
Sunday - Don't know yet

Hmm I need more time to practice gu zheng~ have to memorize some music x_X for Nov examination

Current Music: Set Fire To The Rain - Adele

2 years after the departure of my first relationship, I found another. Although it still hurts so much to see Ranny with some girl, I'm finally slowly moving on. I created an illusion that I was over him long ago, had my life all planned out, so eager to see what's next. But it's only an illusion, those who know me knows that Im still hurting...

So today I was at a wedding. Lots of funny stuff happened, all I can say is that my friend really knows how to select flower boys. lol!~ Anyway, when I have my wedding some day, the only person I want to be thinking about is my future hubby. Although I still love Ranny and I don't think this love will die unless I die too, there is a bright warm future waiting and calling to me.

<3 Tyler Ward

Confession

So my stats final is coming up right, I really need to study. Especially since I mad fail the midterm with half the class~ The class average was 59%.Even if they bell it up, it wouldn't do that good for me. u_u So I really need to get perfect in like everything.

Work-wise, I have SOOO much to do! Just so much on my plate. T_T Have to rush something done tonight for my one and only~ u_u *sigh*

Social Life? Seeing this friend of mine a lot lately o_o Like every other day. I see his parents too, I play badminton with his father. So I don't know~ I know he likes me tho I'm not sure if he's just playing or what not. Frankly speaking, I don't want a relationship, and I hope I made it clear with him. I don't think he wants one either. But if this is just all fun and games then there should be some type of boundaries? If not, then I should set some. Hm.... o.O

sdf

I'm very sorry to bother you, I won't ask again. u_u

>_< *sigh*~ I'll just deal with it.

One minute I'm laughing about Rainbow Bat Man, the next, I crash in disappointment. I went out to see this old friend of mine, did some stats, watched a movie, drove in mist (I mean mist! couldn't see a thing), had so much great laughter. After that, I had to drive myself back home in this HUGE thunderstorm. I thought the mist was bad, but the thunderstorm was SOOO BAD!! I literally couldn't see a thing. When I was turning into my street I don't know, I think I felt a very very small bomb on my car (like I hit something) O__O I am praying to God that it was nothing, it was becuz the road was bumby or something. I don't recall seeing anything. There were A LOT of rain, but when I turn, I turned pretty slowly, and I just don't recall seeing anything there. And I don't know why anyone would be there in a middle of a crazy thunderstorm? If not then, it may be a small animal or something? o.O It decides to take advantage of this pouring rain? yea... Or (and I think the most likely) a small branch or something, or something dropped something, a bottle or I dunno...

I got out of the car to go inside the house, that few second was enough to soak me. That's how bad it is out there. u_u

*sigh* and now... I feel so down. My boss lectured me the entire day today. Even after I got home, she called and discovered more issues with me. *sigh* I really don't know how to handle it. I know that she kept repeating herself cuz I'm not doing it. But sigh I dunno. u___________u sigggggggggggggggggggggggggh