HK

I still have jet lag but it's not as bad as before. I only get up at 5am instead of like 3am. lol~ I'm soo tired to seeing ppls everywhere. I don't wanna see anymore relatives x_x *sigh* I want more dayz of breaks >_<>_> *sigh* Leaving HK this friday for china. Kinda nervous n kinda glad at the same thing.

A few more days left~

wow havent blog for a very long time.... Been really really busy, still got A LOT to do.

sooo....

1) Fix next year's schedule
- call the psy department
- find another humanity course

2) Finish packing my room

3) Pack for China

4) Help my boss with files and letters (tomorrow 8 am)

5) Ranny's coming over to pick up my spare gu zheng

6) Renewing this account thing

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I'm leaving on Thurs. morning so not much time left >_____<
I also got some new songs to listen to ^-^ well~ it's not new but I finally got a hold of them yay~

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Today's meeeting didn't go well. u_u I'm just kinda fustrated @ everything. Micah sure cheer me up tho, him and his gay jokes lolol. *sigh* School is starting very soon again. I had never thought of the importance of marks until recently. I think my boss really drill it into my head. u_u I'm so tired...... I'll post the pics up later x_x, when Alex post those pics I'll post.

Got a doctor appointment tomorrow so prolly wont be online till later.

Lady Gaga So Happy I Could Die

I don't know why, but it makes me happy in a sad way. I have no idea what the song is talking about but it kinda cheers me up a little from this chaos right now. lol

Really wanna go shopping again. Didn't get enough lol I just wanna get away for awhile and just think thing through. Too much is going on~ Just got my new work assignment and meeting, the possibility of moving just got knock down, plans to clean the house, short term mission trip, the GuangDong trip with uncle, still trying to figure out some course selection out, that boy's health condition and so on >_< I'm so tired... I'll post pics up later, dun have my cell with me.

Music: Lady Gaga So Happy I Could Die - Lady Gaga

So In Love~~

() M g~ I'm sooo in love with my bf lol ^-^ My bf (best friend) Britt~ is sooo amusing!! and totally awesome!! I think I fell in love with this new shop that I usually never go to. Can't wait to see her in Oct u_u (hopefully she's coming back for our bday celebration) if not I'll be seeing her in Christmas. >_<>_> THe mom luvs talking but she never say her point. She would just repeat over and over again, go back to unfinish ideas, then lags awhile, and so on.... u_u I can't believe I have the patient to seat through it for over 30 minutes. I think it comes from that trainning from my boss. x_x So then, went to this other mall by myself and did bit of shopping. Didn't get anything tho, I only got "that" lol~ omg~ Im sooo in luv with Britt~ lol and did I mention that I'm in love with this (b) friend Brittany? She's just amazing~ I'll miss her sooo much when she;s gone. T^T

n yea.. just got news that these I guess friends who are (I think) really really clingy is clinging with us to ShangHai after the english camp in Yangshou >___> I don't know but this is getting annyoing kinda, cuz the ShangHai thing is suppose to be a family thing, n these 2 ppls (kids) are just tagging along when they can go to Tawian with the rest of the campers. >__>

Cancelled

I was going to have my lesson today. I even cleaned my gu zheng and was planning to bring it to my teacher for tuning after so long. But a friend of my parents' (excuse my language, dumbfounded) son decided to do something crazy and hit his head. He is now in the hopsital and the doctors are preparing for the surgrey. The thing is, hopstials' doctors/ nurses don't treat patients until after they waited for about 6 hours, even if they got hit by a car and lost half of their body/face, it's like it's in their norm or something to be always lagging. So apparently (I think) he got treated almost immdiately which also means that it could very much be a life and death situation. *sigh* I'm not very fond of him but I really do hope he'll survive and live differently from now on. I just didn't like how dad was trying to blame it on Jojo. If that was suppose to be funny, it really wasn't. It was just plain immature, this has nothing to do with Jojo. That guy was already kinda crazy to begin with and is not like Jojo was a good friend of his, to say that it was Jojo's influence that caused this accident just arg annoying and down-right wrong >_> omg~ and the way how Jojo handled this false-accusation mad things even worse. He just made it even more convincing that he was the guy to blame, exactly what my father wanted perhaps? I don't know.

So Jojo and Esy had mandarin class today. I had to go too but I couldnt just cancel my teacher. Nobody understand why I have to go to gu zheng class u_u. ANyways, so I couldnt go to the manadrin and they can't drive me to gu zheng class cuz it's at opposite direction and the time was conflicting, which was fine. Esy and jojo takes one car, and my dad and I will take the other car. Suppose to anyways, but my dad couldn't drive at this moment, for real legit reasons. His friend wants him to go to the hopsital with him, he even ofter to drive him there. So it's alrite, you'll think my mom can drive me right? WRONG. I guess she really wants to be there for her friend too. So she told dad to drive me to gu zheng and that friend can bring her instead. So they argued for a bit. Dad offer to drive me at the end, but it'll be really risky with his current condition. I was uncomfortable with this idea and so was mom. Still, mom tried to get esy to drive me there, but it just don't make sense. She told her to just drop me off nearby and I can just walk there since I still have time. After class's done, I can walk to some McDonald and stay for there an hour or so. Or, I can just wait in my teacher's house for an hour, she wouldn't mind. >____> *sigh* I actually don't mind walking and I rather stay out at night then having to bother my teacher and bring her any kinds of inconvience. But I need to bring my gu zheng today for tuning and there's no way I can carry that around. u_u

So mom was really pissed at whatever she was pissed at. So the aruging went on for a bit until I stepped in and offer to call my teacher for a cancellation. My dad said no, it's unnecessary, besides it's not very nice to cancel someone 20 mins earlier. I went upstair while they argued some more. Finally, my father came up and told me to cancel it.

I called~ My teacher was very understanding, I told her about the situation, and she was very nice about it. Although she did sound a bit annoyed~ what does it matter though, I'm the one who has to talk to her, not mom, she wouldn't know. >_> So I told them that I cancelled it and my mom was SOOOO happy. <_< if I just quit gu zheng altogether, I wonder if that'll make her happier.

What I don't understand is that why wont she drive me and then go to the hopstial herself. She thought Jojo was crazy for suggesting this idea, like omg go to the hopstial myself, are you high? Like why not? *sigh* With all due respect to my mom, I just think that she should be more respectful to my teachers, she take things for granted way too easily. Me and my process/ learning is never a proity to her. She only wants to receive the praise and glory from her peers but always gives me the feeling that she don't want to pay for my lessons. >_> *sigh*

I don't know. u_u This is the last straw though. If this happens one more time, I will have to confront her. >_> and I don't know, I don't believe in the sorries anymore. x_x

Chasing.

I know it's not about where you're gonna be, the things you're gonna have, the harvest when it comes to life and being sucessful, it's about who u'll become ~ but right now, at this moment, I really feel like I need all that. I need a bigger space, a neater, a more positive enviornment to help me think. I just can't wait anymore. At this rate, we're all gonna be staying here. T^T Really really really wanna move. I want my own space. u_u *sigh* I still have to loan from OSAP and pay them back after I gard. T_T I really want a high paying job. I feel like those fishes in those supermarket. Caged with 6 other big fishes in the same space and everyone is like in your face all the time. *sigh* Study harder. Work harder. Train harder. Forget modelling, dancing, bento boxes, bejewel, music, and my love for anything else. What makes me happy right now is that space and if that's the price, I am prepare to pay it.

What we face may look insurmountable. But I learned something from all those years of training and competing. I learned something from all those sets and reps when I didn't think I could lift another ounce of weight. What I learned is that we are always stronger than we know. Arnold Schwarzenegger



Before I go to sleep and start fresh tomorrow, I just want to add this item to my prayer list tonight. Although I don't know her, a friend of my bf is a friend mine. Tho there's absoutely nothing I can do to ease the pain, I shall remember it in prayers.

Music: I Dreamed A Dream - Glee