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Live~ As if there's nothing to lose.

Disappointed

So instead of giving me what I applied for (VP of Public Relation, VP of Admin., VP of Operation), guess what creative role HRSA decides to bestow me - the HRSA Generalist. Sounds pretty good eh~ Wait until you get to the job roles and responsibilities.

‐ Identify and manage tasks and issues that are not being addressed 
‐ Be aware of all events and activities that are taking place in order to 
contribute your skills effectively 
‐ Contribute to group discussions and meetings on all topics and occasions
‐ Be a helping hand to fellow council members as much as possible 

In other words, we have someone better for those more important VP positions. Still, we can use more help, so here's a position that we just made up. Like literally, there was no such position before. >_> I know they got over 200 applications but I really thought I'll get a seat at the VP position. T_T In a way, I'm really disappointed. I really wanted a VP position, for looks on my resume. u_u Now I'm a generalist. Which doesn't sound THAT bad, but still... T___T Now I'm bfless, jobless, and VPless T__T

I hope there's only one generalist. If I find out in orientations that there are like 5 other generalists I'll like cry. *sigh* If I were to take advantage tho of this situation, this might give me a chance to learn all the roles (admin, operation,PR, communication, finance, and so on). I can also now set my heart on joining the baddy team or maybe find a PT job too. I don't know...

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I don't know what it is... Maybe it's Ranny (lol), maybe it's the medication, maybe it's cuz I'm jobless, but I suddenly lost motivation. There is no amount of jackets that can make me happy. No music can lift me. No food can comfort me.

I lost that drive to succeed, that thirst to win. I don't feel like doing anything. This sense of nothingless is wasting my time. *sigh* Let's talk about something more interesting, something more enlightening.

Politics~ Whoever thought politics are for the old and dying are obviously just plain ignorant. I get o.O whenever my classmates/ friends express their zero interest in politics. Although their reasons are fair enough I suppose (for them), but I don't understand why shouldn't you be concern on what is happening in the very place that you live in. Even if you don't have a say, your voice won't be heard anyway, I think it's important to be aware of what is happening.

For those who were on vacation during the 2011 election (Ranny), missed a critical mark in Canadian history. lol And now the background stories are out. Behind the scene, the strategies used, the techniques and methods that were executed by our majority government Harper was just brilliant. Layton too played well, like a true politician. Cunning and manipulative. Targeting young people and those who are not in favour of any parties. Liberals, on the other hand, just fell apart. Just like how Globe and Mail put it - the leaderless Liberals.

On another note, I really wanna buy aLan's Voice of You. u_u lol That was completely random. lo

Gonna do some stats now....

bored

Dear blogspot~

I'm so bored. I'm debating if I should call Micah. He's the only friend who I can talk to. *sigh* Sounds depressing. But I don't know. How is it that I have over 500 friends on fb yet I can't talk to anyone of them at a more personal level? The only person who I ever feel comforting just randomly calling is Ranny. lol And even with him, it all has change now. I can still call Micah I suppose, but I don't really have much to say. I'm just calling cuz I can't find something better to do? Hm... See I don't want to be such a bother.I would rather be all by myself then be troublesome/annoying. lol

Hm~ Other then that, I spend the whole day watching this British drama show. I forget what it's call but is about this call girl living this double life. It's kinda interesting and listening to her British accent was simply delightful~ lol

Current Music: 悲しみは雪に眠る- aLan

張愛玲寫給女人的49句話 ( a few of them lo)

不要去好奇，不要去關心，他的現任女友長得如何？身材如何？你這樣只是自尋煩惱罷了

不是所有的努力都會成功，但是，不努力，就一定不會成功

放好心態，失去的東西，不要悲傷，你就當，他本身就不屬於你。

儘量做個優雅的女子，千萬別做作，因為，做作的女人，不僅女人討厭，男人更討厭

獨立，永遠。不管，感情還是金錢

20歲以下，你相信偶像劇，那就算了。20歲以上，你還相信偶像劇，那就完了

不要做女強人，要做強女人。

Tangled

First week of summer school just got started and it was BORRINNNNNNNGGGG!! I think Im gonna drop OHS and take something else. Cuz the prof cannot teach AT ALL!! It's not just boring it's draining. It really feels like a waste of time.

Anyway, I saw Tangled yesterday. Yes, it came out on DVD like a long time ago, but I didn't get to see it till yesterday. I just wanna say that Mandy Moore is like one my fav fav fav actress~ and Repunzel is like my fav princess. Why? Cuz it's my first big story I can read and understand all by myself in Chinese. ^^ll *sigh*

um~ O yea~ I now have confidence - in stats that's 95%I think (lol)that Ranny's gf is indeed stalking me on fb. lool SHe does it pretty frequently~ Like whenever I have an update she'll be checking on my profile lol using Ranny's account of course. But see, Ranny hardly ever uses fb and if he does, he'll be just replying to a comment or getting some YTSA club promotion out. Unless all of a sudden, after he get a new gf, he is now all curious about his ex~ LOL which is not likely :P Oh~ I know him too well~ lol

I'm not sure if I blog about this already. So I'll just keep all my side-comments to myself. *sigh* Ranny's a special one lol.

Sooo yeaa~ It's been some time since I posted pics~ so I'll post a today.







lol was gonna post more.. but it wont let me so maybe next time~~ lol

yay~`

So all the marks are out!! and YAY I GOT AN A in Roots of Canada or something like that~ And this essay AI wrote actucally qualified to compete for the William West something Prize lol!! Although the prize is nothing huge, but what an honour to be selected~ Top 2 papers in class!! You know how big my class is? lol BIG!!

Overall, I'm pretty happy with the results this year. The lowest mark was like a C+ from OD >_> but I was sick for that whole week (fever n everything) couldn't study. u_u Everything else was not bad too~ Thank God~ lol my psy prof bumped me up to a B. So even though I almost failed my final I end up with a B. ^-^ yay~~ OMG n econ was a shocker too~ cuz the final was soo cruel!! we all walked out the exam room shooking our heads~ sighing~ n alot of ppls failed/ did really bad. I actually did ok~ N honestly, I didnt study that much. yayyyy~~~

Very very happy~ Sigh* As for Ranny, he's in HK right now. I called him for advice recently and turn out that I made a long distance call. It's funny cuz even now, after all these time, the fact that he's sharing his life with someone else is still really bothering me. u_u n to be honest, I think I'll just have to live with it.

After finding out that he's in HK, n chances are, he's with his gf. Somehow, something inside of me changed. I don't want to feel sorry for myself, but I can't get the whole thing out of my system either. Instead, I am now obsessing to be something. I have started cross-country again every morning (well.. Mon-Fri lol) at 7am, cuz I wanna be skinny n pretty n energetic. Gonna get my room cleaned up. Gonna practice everyday to put my cons on. Gonna do this and that. But no matter what I do, I always seems to be thinking about him. Pathetic eh~ o~ love makes us all fools~


Current Music: Failling - Tyler Ward