Mistakes

The one biggest mistake I've made so far, I think, is not repeating mistakes. No, that's what my boss tells me. See, it's horrible, but! It's still somewhat fixable. The biggest mistake, so far, is that I've misunderstood the entire education system. Although I have the world to blame for this, I accuse myself for the inability to change my mental models. Even now, today, I still stand by some of these principles. I'll defend some of these principles with my life if I have to. Yet, as I grow up, many of these will be have rewritten or refine. Still, even though I am trying to change now, I still have to pay a price for that mistake. That price is time, both past and presence, I'm already wasting the future. And right now, I can't afford this price, not anymore.

So I had a really bad day at work today. I don't know what to say. I'm not giving up though! If she's not quitting on me, there's NO WAY I'm giving myself up! I luv me too much~ lol~ Either way, I really need this. This will be such an big stepping stone for me. For those of you who don't know, I am going to become famous one day. Not because I am sooo damn good taking short cuts or I got someone else to do the job for me, but I WORKED FOR IT!!! AND I AM WILLING TO DO WHAT IT TAKES. EVEN IF I DIE TRYING, I DIE KNOWING that God loves me T__T and I PUT UP AN OUTSTANDING FIGHT! Like Spartans!! I am taking the war to another level, so don't try walking over me.

I might cry. I might get depressed. I might even have a nervous break down. But I'm not afraid to get hurt, or be emotional, or even draw blood. If it kills me, then so be it, was nice knowing you. Thank you so much to all my friends (Micah, Esther, Jojo, and others... you know who you are) If you only knew, you would have done the same. Don't judge me for being crazy. "Great process is made by these who have the foresight and the courage to be unreasonable."

I was inspired today by Gurbaksh Chahal and so my blog was kinda long. " every mistake in the real world builds your character." He's so right, though I'm not sure what kind of characters, 'cause it goes both ways (positive and negative).

Now, to plan for vengeance- one long-ass-blog indeed.

I've tried spreading the work out through the week, but it wasn't good enough. To nail it, I need more planning, more time, more fire. As for now:

1) organize desk
2) printout of things to look out for (stuff she hates)
3) brainstorm and plan to do the impossibles
4) steps to do the impossible task + agenda
5) the action