I hate this.

omg~ I wanna cry~ Hate doing research, it was never my thing. I don't even know what to do, that database that he told us to do is SOO FRIGIN USELESS!! NEVER HAD I SEEN A DATABASE SO USELESS B4! He can't even find a method thatworks for his example, like how are we suppose to find ours if he cant find his.

I don't understand a thing that's going on. God help me T___T

wow

I think I might need more friends ~

Guu

Why am I always hungry?

Nikita

Enough of the scare~ I'm so fed up with the negativity around this blog. Let's talk about something else~ Like my current fav. series <3 NIKITA~ Starring Maggie Q and Shane something... Luv the story, tho the lines arent as Glee, the actions/guns are not bad. :D I think I found my inner Nikita today. lol

Listening to a lot of Beyonce these dayz. Not in love with her or anything but she's such a star. So bright and dominant~ her voice is so emotional, lyrics are so meaningful (some of them), her heart is soo soulful? lol

Better get back to my assignment. Seeing my employer tomorrow. Lots to talk about... *sigh*

Current Music: If I Was A Boy - Beyonce

My mentor/employer called again regarding the tutor issue. We talked, or more like she talked, and yeah~ I have nothing to say... I'm just tried.. She gave me some new orders: drop the tutor find a new qualify tutor by Oct. If not, she will take over but not charge me.

I don't know what to do or what's right? Whatever she wants to do conflicts with my parents' interest. u_u sigh~ Just when I'm sooo down about it, I went biblegateway cuz I have it save as my fav lol n bam~

“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.”- Romans 5:3-4

I don't know if that means I should keep or drop my tutor, but at least it sound comforting.

Being Compared

Why do we do it? It's like comparing apples with oranges ~ they're both friuts but u know u can't do that, so why compare people? isn't that the same logic?

So last night, my mentor/employer/boss/second mom/sister/friend/family-friend? (I don't even know what to call her anymore) called me and she said blahblahblah~ She had lots of good points, her thinking is correct~ but then all of a sudden, she said to me "o no~ Cory just left IBM, I wanted you to come meet him! So you can see the differences." This is acutally the second time she told me this. The first time she said it, I took it as a joke (it wasn't funny tho). So I said "Isn't it obivious?" Then she went on, "o~ I want u to meet this other girl in IBM, she is just like you BUT... blahblahblah~ I want you to see the differences." >__>

Okay, I get your point. YOu want me to see how much I suck in comparison to IBM's stellar employees. Great... But it's best if we don't meet at all, I already have this urge to make that girl cry. I just can not be compare, especially to another girl. Urg~ I think is my nature of extreme competitivness that made it seem like it's a big deal.

I think the real question is that if you love IBM's stellar employees so much, why don't you just convince them to work for you instead? I know you can do it? Why don't you mentor them instead and treat them ice-cream? If you're not satisfy with me, then drop me already.

Words like those really bothers me. Is like I want them to disappear. *sigh* u_u Then again, it's not really their fault....

WoW

Havent blog for so long. Cant believe I forgot the pw and then accidently got in somehow. lol
Soo much happened~ Still got lots of unfinish business to do. O~ I'm gonna post pics like I promised months ago lolol~

Moving into my sister's room~ packing

lol my bro lololol~

remen~

Brit's ramen~

b4 we leave Canada

wanna blog more but eblog is being gay~ it's not letting me type wherever I wanna so that's it for today. *hum* >_>