Fireworks~

Happy Victoria Day~ Guess what I'll be doing on Vic holiday Monday~ the HRSA oreientation~ wohoo~ Hm I don't know, but I'm actually not that excited about it. I think the allocation of my position lowered my morale lol. But there are only 2 generalist position. That means that I don't have to cry about it. lol mhm~ u_u I guess Im kinda excited to meet new people. But it's like on Monday night. >_>

I really wanna post up my gu zheng vids but lol no camera. x_x

Current Music: You - Koda Kumi

Spring? SUmmer?

So turn out that the reason why all my joints are hurting/itching/burning/red/ weak/ etc... are not because of RA (thank God) but of allergic reaction. So I went to the doctors and he said it's caused by the strange weather lately. So my joints got confused so they inflamed. lol I don'tknow, but after taking some expire (didn't know until after I read the box) medication it all slowly went away.

Current Song: Jar of Heart - Glee

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Live~ As if there's nothing to lose.

Disappointed

So instead of giving me what I applied for (VP of Public Relation, VP of Admin., VP of Operation), guess what creative role HRSA decides to bestow me - the HRSA Generalist. Sounds pretty good eh~ Wait until you get to the job roles and responsibilities.

‐ Identify and manage tasks and issues that are not being addressed 
‐ Be aware of all events and activities that are taking place in order to 
contribute your skills effectively 
‐ Contribute to group discussions and meetings on all topics and occasions
‐ Be a helping hand to fellow council members as much as possible 

In other words, we have someone better for those more important VP positions. Still, we can use more help, so here's a position that we just made up. Like literally, there was no such position before. >_> I know they got over 200 applications but I really thought I'll get a seat at the VP position. T_T In a way, I'm really disappointed. I really wanted a VP position, for looks on my resume. u_u Now I'm a generalist. Which doesn't sound THAT bad, but still... T___T Now I'm bfless, jobless, and VPless T__T

I hope there's only one generalist. If I find out in orientations that there are like 5 other generalists I'll like cry. *sigh* If I were to take advantage tho of this situation, this might give me a chance to learn all the roles (admin, operation,PR, communication, finance, and so on). I can also now set my heart on joining the baddy team or maybe find a PT job too. I don't know...

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I don't know what it is... Maybe it's Ranny (lol), maybe it's the medication, maybe it's cuz I'm jobless, but I suddenly lost motivation. There is no amount of jackets that can make me happy. No music can lift me. No food can comfort me.

I lost that drive to succeed, that thirst to win. I don't feel like doing anything. This sense of nothingless is wasting my time. *sigh* Let's talk about something more interesting, something more enlightening.

Politics~ Whoever thought politics are for the old and dying are obviously just plain ignorant. I get o.O whenever my classmates/ friends express their zero interest in politics. Although their reasons are fair enough I suppose (for them), but I don't understand why shouldn't you be concern on what is happening in the very place that you live in. Even if you don't have a say, your voice won't be heard anyway, I think it's important to be aware of what is happening.

For those who were on vacation during the 2011 election (Ranny), missed a critical mark in Canadian history. lol And now the background stories are out. Behind the scene, the strategies used, the techniques and methods that were executed by our majority government Harper was just brilliant. Layton too played well, like a true politician. Cunning and manipulative. Targeting young people and those who are not in favour of any parties. Liberals, on the other hand, just fell apart. Just like how Globe and Mail put it - the leaderless Liberals.

On another note, I really wanna buy aLan's Voice of You. u_u lol That was completely random. lo

Gonna do some stats now....

bored

Dear blogspot~

I'm so bored. I'm debating if I should call Micah. He's the only friend who I can talk to. *sigh* Sounds depressing. But I don't know. How is it that I have over 500 friends on fb yet I can't talk to anyone of them at a more personal level? The only person who I ever feel comforting just randomly calling is Ranny. lol And even with him, it all has change now. I can still call Micah I suppose, but I don't really have much to say. I'm just calling cuz I can't find something better to do? Hm... See I don't want to be such a bother.I would rather be all by myself then be troublesome/annoying. lol

Hm~ Other then that, I spend the whole day watching this British drama show. I forget what it's call but is about this call girl living this double life. It's kinda interesting and listening to her British accent was simply delightful~ lol

Current Music: 悲しみは雪に眠る- aLan

張愛玲寫給女人的49句話 ( a few of them lo)

不要去好奇，不要去關心，他的現任女友長得如何？身材如何？你這樣只是自尋煩惱罷了

不是所有的努力都會成功，但是，不努力，就一定不會成功

放好心態，失去的東西，不要悲傷，你就當，他本身就不屬於你。

儘量做個優雅的女子，千萬別做作，因為，做作的女人，不僅女人討厭，男人更討厭

獨立，永遠。不管，感情還是金錢

20歲以下，你相信偶像劇，那就算了。20歲以上，你還相信偶像劇，那就完了

不要做女強人，要做強女人。