I think aside from my bf, there isn't anyone in the world who can hurt me like my father. When my mom say hurtful stuff, I just brush it off my shoulder, roll my eyes and wonder when is she going to stop talking. When my dad say hurtful stuff, he strips away my dignity and pride.
What happened was during the sharing time of bible study, my father asked if I need the car tomorrow to go to school and I was like "no, the bf is picking me up." I also made a little joke "Im giving him more chances to drive me around." Mom and Esy cheered, and dad nodded, agreeing to what I said but raised his voice in all seriousness and said this "YOU KNOW, IT FEELS AS THOUGH YOU'RE REALLY CHEAP."
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How can you say that? Do you really feel that way about me? Cheap? Not worthy? Because I'm a girl and I go out? I drive? I pick up my bf if I see the need to? Somehow, his words really hurt me. I can't stop crying.
I just think that he doesn't have to drive me at all to places? My mind is filled with nothing but counter hurtful insults. I think they just want me to go and stop living off them. I don't know what I'm going to do. Right now, I can say I can I really dislike them.
Slow to anger, quick to listen and slow to speak.
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